o teste intermedio de biologia/geologia correu-me mal por causa daquelas escolhas multiplas todas. sou pessima nisso. ponho uma opçao e depois penso que nao é essa, e risco, e no final, era aquela a certa!
Já estive a ver a correcção na net, e vai-me dar negativa. tou mesmo desapontada comigo mesma. Nunca tive negativa em toda a minha vida, e no 2º periodo deste ano tirei logo uma a math e a fq. Bolas, como eh que isto é possivel. Eu nao acredito nisto. Estou a falhar na escola, e nunca antes tinha tirado negativas! Com tantas negativas assim... estou tao envergonhada. sempre fui uma boa aluna. uma coisa é tirar 1, agora, esta ja vai ser a minha terceira! Meu Deus, sinto-me tao.. tao...
Anyway, o meu maninho volta hoje da lua-de-mel *^^*
E fui seleccionada para o campo de ferias \o/ nao estava nd ah espera. Agora tenho menos de 2 meses para emagrecer, senao ainda faço figura de parva.
I wonder if I'm really like that.
I mean, why can't I have my own privacy? Why can't I just tell my mom that it's ridiculous the fact that I'm living with my grandma and grandpa (and now my brother left to his house now that he married) without have her telling my grandma that I’m not feeling good with they. It’s totally different.
Why can’t I just stay on my computer, doing nothing and feeling like shit, without having my grandma complaining that I don’t care about her and that I have a cold heart and stuff like that? It’s always the same. ALWAYS. She is always telling me the same things. I like her, but why does she have to be doing always the same things. Damn. I feel like I have a whole family of EMOS, including myself.
I think I know why we start liking people less than we did before. When we know almost all of them, we get sick because the actions and the way of thinking are so predictable. It’s feels like that person doesn’t have anything else to prove and give to us. Aff
Even though I have my sins, I know I would never do certain things. I know I can’t start telling everyone around the world this, but, I believe that my ingenuity is right. My father is going to buy a new house (vivenda in portuguese) in Viseu and he will put my name on it. Like if I’m the owners of that house. But some friends of my dad are telling him that they heard stories about people that their own sons expelled their fathers from their own house, since that fathers trusted them and put their name on papers and stuff like that. People can be manipulated by others, but I promise myself, that my morality will not be corrupted by anyone. Damn, I could never to that to anyone. I never really thought about being the owner of that house, but since my dad talked today about this, I am thinking about it right now. One thing is for sure: If it wasn’t me who paid the house, then, it’s not mine. The end
Talking about manipulated people, I realized that I am one of them too. I think that everyone has a little bit of it (with no offence). I need to realize that if someone doesn’t want to have any kind of contact with me, I must not insist. It doesn’t matter if I don’t know the reason. Maybe some people just don’t like some kind of persons and don’t feel “empathy”. That’s all.
But, maybe I am not really interested on that person. Maybe it’s just because I admire her since she has such a different yet captivated personality. I felt like I could understand her and she could understand me. But everyone should have privacy.
I need to admit that I’m going to feel jealous of the person that she will consider as a “friend” or more than that ^o^’’ but hey, I think I only wanted to be with her because she knows what she wants in her life and is so”free”. Sometimes, I felt like I was copying her, since almost everything I liked she liked. But, one time, when I was told that she was learning the piano, I felt like I wanted too. At first, I thought that’s because I am an envious person and I should be ashamed, but then, I always knew that I would adore to learn it or maybe the violin (since I love it too, but it’s so complicated =/), and now that someone could accomplish that, maybe I could too? But, now look at me. Doing nothing. No skills. No abilities. No hobbies. Anti-social. It’s ridiculous. Not only I have a bad body and face, my personality sucks. I seriously need to get a life.
Conclusion: I will stop manipulate people. I’m sure that that person got my e-mail. If she doesn’t answer, it’s ok… right? I must not insist. I will stop. It’s clearly that that person doesn’t want anything with me, right?
EDIT: DAMN MY GRANDMA IS SCREAMING AGAIN AND I CAN’T HOLD IT ANYMORE. DAMN DAMN DAMN
SHIT SHE IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO................!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
oh right, she suffers a lot. she is a 100%victim. oh, right, of course... argh, Why does she acts like a child? why does she only wants attention? can't she realize that she isn't the center of the world? STOP DOIND THAT YOU IDIOTTTTT
Oh meu Deus, eu nao acredito nisto. Vejam [tou a falar pra mim mesma, mas ok]: LINK CLICA!!
Perae, eu tenho de por aqui, DITO POR RAFA NO HI5:
Entao... A minha vida... Actualmnt e mt perfeita ! Nao sou rica nem possuo milhares de casas, mas tb, o qe e' qe isso importa ?
Sou feliz ! Basta.m ! [claro qe quando receber a mh nega a FQ nao vou ser la mt feliz, mas prontz --']
Anyway, eu gt mt d vir a aqi dizer bgd 'as pessoas qe me tornam feliz, pq e' importante elas saberem qe de facto o sao.
As melhores pessoas qe de momento fazem parte d mh vida: [nao estao pu ordem d preferencia, ate pq tds eles ocupam o 1º lugar !]
- Ela, mais conhecida pu AGP, qe e tudo ! Es simplesmnt ! <3
- Ele, mais conhecido pu Pedro, aqele qe me faz tao feliz, e qe me faz corar, e qe me faz ter diarreira cerebral tds os segundos ! Amtt @
- Di, a mh twin, epa simplesmnt perfeita !
- Isa, aqela miuda qe me faz rir tanto nas aulas, e qe me faz levar cm um ''RAFAELA'' de algum stor marado !
- Ines, aqela qe so me faz gastar o saldo do movel ! XD Mas e aqela qe eu gt, aqela a qe eu conto tanto e confio !
- Ju, a minha filha, uma das pessoas mais bonitas qe conheço !
- Bruno R, aqele estroncio qe e super fixe ! XD E qe tem os ataqes-de-eu-sou-ela-e-nao-um-ele !
- Joao, a pessoa qe adoro odiar ! hehe XD
- Rute, a mh parceira dos livrozzzzzz ! hehe XD Simplesmnt gosto-t !
- Bruno P, o meu 'namorado' aqele cm qem faço um grande par ! XDD [segundo o stor de ING xD ]
- Vanessa, mais conhecida pu 'Bai Nessa', a mh croqetezinhaaa ! XDD
- Ary, simplesmnt um gajo 5*, aqele qe me ouve sem parar nas aulas d ING ! XD
- Pedro D, a pessoa qe gt mt d mndr sms's ao Ary na aula d ING, e qem eu gt mt d dizer 'Nao se mandam sms's nas aulas d ING !' XD
- Marina, a mais fantabulastica delas todas ! XD
- Diogo, mais conhecido pu Grande Braza, aqele qe apesar de nao ns conhecer.ms bem, fala cmg n boa e faz coments d genero 'YEEEE Gande braço !' LOOL
- Diogo, a.k.a cigano, super porreiro e qe gosta mt d paus ! XDD [06.05.08 #]
- Marcelo, epa o qe hei.d dizer sobre ti maluco ? Simplesmnt drt pa ! Coraçao mm !
E e' so'. Pelo menos penso qe sim ! Sou mt esqecida ! XD """"
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Tao a ver?? Tah ALI O MEU NOME, SIM RUTE RUTE RUTE!
Eu sei q ela nunca vai ler isto, mas obg mor xDDD adoro-te!!
realmente, ela tem sido uma optima amiga. tenho desabafado algumas coisas com ela.
Mas as vezes consigo odiar tanto certas pessoas. eh serio, as vezes parecem tao simpaticas e divertidas, outras vezes conseguem ser mesmo maus.
eu sei q n sou perfeita e tou mto longe disso, mas nunca seria capaz de dizer tanto mal de uma pessoa assim, e muito menos, intencionalmente.
anyway, tou doente, com um ataque de ranho e dores de cabeça e faltei ao teste de math. BOLAS, AGORA VOU FAZER UM TESTE MTO MAIS DIFICIL!!!!!!!!! ><
tou a chorar e n consigo de parar. pq eh q o meu irmao eh tao mau e eu tao ignorante e estupida q so faz porcaria e uma fingidora.
ah uma musica mesmo linda, chamada Shinkirou de Loveholic. eh uma musica coreana.
e a musica dos Evanescence eh tao profunda e linda
ultimamente n me calo com isto de um grande e caloroso abraço. tou sempre a imaginar. deve saber mesmo bem
O japao tem a maior taxa de suicidios.
quem me dera q pudesse abraçar a toda a gente e dizer como queria compreende-las e ser amiga delas. uma amiga verdadeira. n por se terem suicidado, mas porque eu sei q eram puras e boas, eu sinto.
